Immaturity

It's amazing how immature some people can be.

Someone that is 22 years old acts like my 10 year old cousin. Why must you always cut me off when I'm trying to help you and repeat the same thing 10 times before I walk away, completely annoyed. Isn't it clear that I don't want to help you because you're being that way? The only reason you know half the things you know is because you didn't listen the first time you were told and came to me to find out - or you had the opportunity and common sense to look it up yourself, but weren't willing to do it. How is it that I was able to figure it out on my own but am somehow obligated to give that information to you? I can figure it out - you can figure it out. I would be willing to help you more if you were more respectful to me or stopped calling me "stupid" or "wrong" every 2 seconds, but you reap what you sow. Who says that kind of stuff when you're already out of college? Don't you know how people take it? You're not 10 anymore..

You'll get what's coming to you in the end.

Yes We Can!

Obama/Biden '08

:)

I feel like the world is already a better place. I really feel optimistic for the future of the US.

Life after Graduation

So the time has come where I am now working. I understand what people go through everyday now, all the friends who graduated and go to sleep early every night so they can wake up for work in the morning.

My life has become like the life of a robot: wake up, go to work, come home, cook dinner, watch tv, sleep and do it all over again. I need a hobby. I need to be active.

Work itself isn't all that bad. Make your calls, make appointments, help out your reps, and have fun with your co-workers. Co-workers keep you sane. sometimes. sometimes I guess they're the ones that drive you over the edge, but for the time being, I am counting on them to keep me sane.

At least I have the weekends to myself. :)

concert!

so our first taiko concert is coming up in 2 days. am i excited? kind of...? maybe its just the stress of getting everything perfect and making sure everything turns out alright. i wonder whats going to happen once i graduate... so many people ask me what im going to do when i graduate... i have no idea. no REALLY i have no idea. stop asking me.

on the upside, i now can put on yukata in less than 3 minutes! woohoo!!

oh, apparently i appear in people's dreams telling them to lie, haha. kat said that i was in her dream and i told her to just lie about stuff... does that mean im a bad influence??

im here

so i was sitting in my japanese ghost class and i started thinking about how when i just graduated high school and there was a party for me, where i got a ton of gifts and things. i remember thinking back then how amazing it would be to graduate from college, how it would be the best years of my life, and how i would do so many amazing things. i also thought about how much more cash i would score when i graduated college, but thats just cuz im superficial like that. but thats another story. so here i am now, about to graduate college. a little more than 3 more months and ill be off into the real world, ready to take on new things and give up the good life of partying, playing video games, living within walking distance of most of my friends, and not having a 9-5. i cant believe im so close to the end. here i am, about to graduate from UC BERKELEY, the best effing public university in the world. i never thought i would be here. there are so many things that i did do in these past 4 years, and so much i have yet to do.

ive made so many good friends and had so many amazing experiences, ive learned so much about the world that i never would have any other place, i got to live in japan, i got to talk with so many amazing professors and people, ive gotten so many opportunities that so many people don't get ever.

i remember thinking about how grown up i would be once i graduated from college, but here i am. i still feel like a youngster, still act like one too. when does it start to feel like you really are growing up?? i cant believe its almost over..

accomplishments

http://kentucky.scout.com/a.z?s=48&p=2&c=721003

yayyy my uncle!! hahah. i didnt know he was that accomplished until i read this. well, i knew he was a really good coach, but i didnt know he did all that for SDSU and such. pretty cool. i just keep running into amazing things that people do. people that i thought i knew a lot about. it kind of sucks how accomplishments fade away so quickly, only to be brought up again by someone who has done their research or knows you all too well. its like when you do lots of amazing things and sometimes don't even realize how amazing you are until you're writing your resume and all of the sudden you see what you have made of yourself and its just ridiculously wonderful. you can see everything you've been working for and how far you've come. sometimes you see what you're lacking. all in all, its good to just remember to look at the big picture sometimes. we get so caught up in our goals, the future, sometimes getting stuck in the past, but never really seeing it all together. thats why a lot of things seem transitory, because we just look at it from close up, from the present. things change, nothing stays the same, we think. but then if you look at everything taken together, you see there are some continuities, some common denominators. and you realize how amazing you are and how much you've accomplished. :)

what dreams may come

so i had a dream last night.
i just wanted to record it here because i thought it was really cool and worth remembering. so it started out at some kind of baseball game or something... big venue, sunny. i was there with friends, though i dont remember who. my parents were also there, screaming and having fun in the next section over. there werent that many other people there besides me and my family. now, my mom and dad were both wearing big wigs. my uncles and aunts were also there. uncle don was wearing a pink wig that was kinda punk-rockish and uncle rick was wearing a HUGE wig like marge from the simpsons. except it was light brown in color. they were all laughing at each other and yelling and such. it was fun. now, it seems that my grandmas house was actually connected to this venue. i went inside and people kept coming in and out from the other venue. my grandmas house seemed like a sort of "ramen museum" type place with no other customers but us. so this little old lady comes by selling ice cream cones with that clear gel goop stuff they sell in japan. and she can only speak japanese. my dad asks her how much they are in english of course and she doesnt really respond. so my dad says "free?!" and he just takes one. a couple other uncles follow suit and take some as well. i go over and ask how much they are in japanese and since no one else knows whats going on, i have to pay her. luckily i had my bag of yen on me?? and so i pull it out and the lady pulls out 4 coins that have my initials on them and say well you can just pay with this... so i said, oh ok great. but i still owe like 10 yen. so i shuffle through my bag and pull out a lot of different coins, none of which are 10 yen. eventually though i end up giving her a combination of 5 and 1's, though it took me a while to find the 1s. so then she asks me if i want my fortune to be read. i say sure. she takes a little more of my money and then says if i pay her a little bit more, i have to wait less. so i did. she puts it in her brown decorated box and kind of just waits for something to happen. nothing happens, so i leave. i come back and shes ready to tell me my fortune. she brings out a mirror from a velvet bag. its a heavy mirror that kind of reminds me of beauty and the beast or snow white. she tells me to look in the mirror. this scares me, but i do it anyway. i look in it and see myself. i look uglier than usual in the mirror, but nothing too out of the ordinary. then i see a flash of gray hair and turn the mirror a bit and see my aunt aiko standing there. now, i know for a fact she isnt in the house at the time, so it kinda freaks me out. i tell my grandma to look in the mirror but she says no. then, aiko walks in. i try to make her look in the mirror, but she doesnt want to either. she ends up doing it, but i never find out what she sees. at this point, my alarm goes off.
...now what the heck is that supposed to mean....???

i call this my "finals belt". when i sit down for a really long time (like when finals are going on) i get this huge red line that goes all the way across my stomach. its quite funny. when i look in the mirror and see this, it means: "go outside. stand up more often. be less lazy." haha. cant help it when finals come though. permanent belt for a week or so :)

glass slipper??

have you ever thought about cinderella's famous glass slipper and the practicalities of it.... its actually not.... very practical that is... i mean, for one its probably kind of heavy and uncomfortable. its hard, no padding. and my god, if it breaks... your foot is too. glass everywhere, and located underneath and all around your precious feet? wtf man. not cool at all. i mean it makes sense with the story cuz glass isnt really flexible so to wear a glass slipper, it does kind of have to fit perfectly.. but still.... very impractical in my opinion.