elevator

do you ever make it a point to sit back and look at your life sometime during the day? everyday as im waiting for the elevator, i think about the positives and negatives in my life. i used to think "wow, i can't ask for anything more." but now, it's a little less. i can ask for a little bit more. i need a little bit more. i guess it's been kind of a ritual for me, unconsciously until now, to just use that time by the elevator to evaluate things. sometimes i have more time than others, but it was still used to think about stuff like that. even when i was on the phone, there would be a little person in my head checking things off, making sure not to take things for granted. now, taking things for granted is tricky, because you never really realize you're taking something for granted until it's gone, right? you know how when you're sick you just wish for yourself to be healthy and you feel like once you're healthy you'll be able to do so much more, to do almost anything. but once you become healthy, and start getting on with your life, you rarely stop and think "wow, my body is fully functional and i feel so healthy. i can do almost anything." you just go back to the normal routines. same old stuff, until it happens again. i guess the elevator was just my way of trying to stop that kind of stuff, because it happens to me a lot. i take things for granted. but hopefully, when i have that perfect life again, ill know i do. and ill hold onto it.