elevator

do you ever make it a point to sit back and look at your life sometime during the day? everyday as im waiting for the elevator, i think about the positives and negatives in my life. i used to think "wow, i can't ask for anything more." but now, it's a little less. i can ask for a little bit more. i need a little bit more. i guess it's been kind of a ritual for me, unconsciously until now, to just use that time by the elevator to evaluate things. sometimes i have more time than others, but it was still used to think about stuff like that. even when i was on the phone, there would be a little person in my head checking things off, making sure not to take things for granted. now, taking things for granted is tricky, because you never really realize you're taking something for granted until it's gone, right? you know how when you're sick you just wish for yourself to be healthy and you feel like once you're healthy you'll be able to do so much more, to do almost anything. but once you become healthy, and start getting on with your life, you rarely stop and think "wow, my body is fully functional and i feel so healthy. i can do almost anything." you just go back to the normal routines. same old stuff, until it happens again. i guess the elevator was just my way of trying to stop that kind of stuff, because it happens to me a lot. i take things for granted. but hopefully, when i have that perfect life again, ill know i do. and ill hold onto it.

Professor Zahedi

http://hrw.org/english/docs/2003/10/24/iran6479.htm

I guess when I took Professor Zahedi's class a couple years ago, I didn't realize how crazily awesome he is. I mean, he told us he was wanted in Iran for espionage and such, but I didn't really realize the extent of the seriousness. He left in the middle of the semester to go back to Iran to go to court. Luckily, he came back... but man.. just makes me think about other people's secrets or even non-secrets. How much do you really know about your friends? You know everyone only has limited amounts of time getting to know other people and their quirks and lives. Usually this limits how many people we consider to be 'close friends' and of course some people are closer than others. but what if you just spent a few extra minutes with someone else? or got to know someone a little bit more? i think thats what i like most about getting into relationships. you get that access that no one else really gets. you really get to know a person. and they get to know you. its good knowing that someone can confide everything in you. thats probably also why people love knowing other people's secrets. its a special bond shared between the two of you. you get special access that others dont. its exclusive and theres an understood trust present as well. i dont really know where im going with this, but i really do constantly try to get to know people more the more i realize how much i dont know them. if that makes any sense :p

taiko ghost :)

i think that if i died and turned into a ghost i would send taiko an email saying i wont be coming to practice. im pretty sure if i did andrew would freak out the most out of anyone. i dont know why....